Oh Hey There

A flock of mosquitoes have colonized my room. More specifically, they've colonized the wall space between the wall and my lampshade, since they like to jump off the wall and attack the lamp and don't seem to realize that it isn't doing much good. Where did they get this kamikaze tendency to fly towards the light?

I feel like thinking hard, and it's been a while since I've done that. It's kind of sad that Grey's Anatomy did this to me, but it just reminded me of why Grey's is amazing. I don't understand how the writers do it - they set up these scenes that superficially don't have anything to do with most people's lives, yet everyone walks away from the TV thinking about something in their own lives. It's the only way TV should be - I'd be perfectly fine if every TV show was like Grey's. Right now I just feel like I walked around a corner and found myself sitting there, waiting for me. Not in that great way, either, not like I just FOUND myself, but that I forgot about myself and now feel like crap for doing it. I haven't been feeling a whole lot lately, because the sun's been distracting enough and it's only 15 days till this chapter is done. It's like I forgot about emotions for a while, and I won't deny that it was a nice break but I need them back now.

And I have no idea what to do about these little mosquitoes - I can't very well kill them all, because they're in this weird spot and I don't want to move the lamp for fear that they'll go berserk and colonise the whole room. I don't really want to kill them, either, because I just feel bad that they're stuck there, pinging in between the wall and the lampshade like they don't have a choice. The last thing they really need is someone banging on their wall, trying to kill them. I wonder when they'll figure it out. The worst part is that they probably won't, because they don't have much in the way of nervous systems and therefore have little capacity to learn. It seems like there are fewer mosquitoes now, though - maybe there's still a hope that they can change their habits.

I really want to sleep right now, because that's usually something that changes me. Now that I have my emotions back, maybe I'll feel a weird one tomorrow and it'll throw off my whole day. In a strange way, I'm looking forward to it - I kind of want to go to bed right now so that I can wake up and feel something new. Oh, stop with the despondency and write your paper.