Procrastination, At Long Last

Apparently it can be cold and humid at the same time, did you know that? I didn't, until today. I guess it's what my mom would call "damp."

I took a personality test yesterday for our hall program, and my personality turned out to be "green." I think it's funny that there were only four options of colors to be, yet everyone seems to identify pretty strongly with one of them. Of the billions of people, are we all just variations of these four categories? I'm a pretty strong green, based off of the description, but I also have some orange and blue in me too. Not so much gold. This actually doesn't make any sense if you don't know what each color is, and since the descriptions are pretty complicated, I won't sum up all four of them here. The green was pretty dead on for me: it included some phrases that struck me, like, "I live life by my own standards," "I am a natural non-conformist, a visionary, a problem-solver," "For me, work is play," and "As a child, I found it necessary to respect teachers before I could learn from them." (that last one is particularly accurate - my parents probably know that better than anyone. I'm trying to respect teachers more than I did in the past, I swear.) One that especially struck me was, "I am uneasy when my emotions control me." Does that sound like me? Hm, I'm not sure. (ha)

It's funny that we're all convince we're compeletely unique and individual, but all it takes is a simple test to lay out the main points of your personality for you. I think I like it, because it makes it seem like you actually have a reason to your madness. At the same time, though, it's impossible for one piece of paper to describe us completely, because these are all more positive traits than negative ones. A piece of paper can't tell what you've been through, and even if you act one way, it doesn't necessarily mean that you're a certain way on the inside. There are also variations of each color - my roommate is competely 100% "gold," because she likes following rules and doing things the way she was taught. At the same time, another one of my friends turned out to be "gold" too, but even though she likes tradition she is in no way as rigid as my roommate is.

Of course, though, once you have the descriptions of each type of personality in your hands, you're tempted to put everyone you know into a color. My brother and mom are definitely orange - witty, charming, impulsive, generous, immediate, fraternal. My sister is probably pretty gold - loyal, dependable, prepared, thorough, sensible, faithful, stable, caring, concerned. My dad is very green - analytical, global, conceptual, calm, collected, inventive, abstract, hypothetical.

I guess we'll never know what makes our personalities, really, because no one is exactly alike. My sociology professor would say that we are purely products of our environments, while my evolution teacher would say we are products of nature and each personality trait is an evolutionary advantage (or disadvantage). I think it has to be both. Our experiences shape us, for sure, but if nature isn't involved, how is it that animals have personalities? They do, too - my mom was really surprised when I was talking about a horse's personality once, and asked me if they actually had personalities. Of course they do.

I have so much work I should be doing, but I'm not feeling too motivated this week. I'm sad because one of my favorite classes, botany, is ending, and not only do I not want to switch to invertebrate bio in two weeks, I do not want to learn the last of the material for this class. I think I have less motivation to learn it because it's not all that hard, and I'm not in danger of falling behind and condemning myself to a semester-long game of catch-up. I know I'll like it once I open the book, but I just... have... to... open... it...

maybe gummi bears will help. lovely. I already have cranberry juice, gummi bears would be indeed be just lovely.

I think I really miss Iris lately.