A Slow Day on Uppers

Oh good, I'm back here again :-)

Over the past two days, a lot of small things have happened. I've gotten overwhelmed at the frustration my roommate was causing m. I got over it and could breathe again. Someone I know has a roommate who has undergone some crazy change and is no longer the person she used to be. I've heard the story more times than I can count, and realized that I felt negative every time the subject came up with this friend. I let go of that, too. I met the person who I've lived across the hall from for three months (you know what I mean - I knew her name and face, but not who she was). She's not happy either, but I'm glad that she finally got to know me, so that I'm one more person who can make her laugh when she needs it.

I can't do everything, but I can do something. I can't know the world until I know myself - until I see how I'm a part of that world. I am a part of this world, in more ways than one - it's the small links that tie people together, the ones that make you present somewhere. It's because people recognize me that I am here, and I want to recognized only in a positive light when there's so much negativity being thrown around. That's all it takes - don't be the person who calls to mind life's frustrations. Why do we sit around and talk about how tough our schedules are, how much we don't like our roommates, or how awful the weather is? I frankly just don't want to talk about it anymore, because bitching life out has never been an effective strategy for spreading holiday cheer.

I wrote christmas cards to my grandmothers today, which was wonderful since I can't exactly be negative to my grandmothers. I got a package from my mom with these cute little christmas lights that look like happy santas. My roommate was gone the entire day because she was holed up in the library, so I got the room to myself, meaning that the door was open and I could work at my own pace with hallway ambient noise, periodically interrupted by people wandering in and out. Dinner was delicious and fun because we sat around for a while doing nothing but making art out of silverware and styrofoam. Well, actually, that was just me.

Anyway I had a lovely day because I realized that it's pretty much impossible to have a bad day if you're being positive. DUH why is that rocket science? I dunno, it is for some reason. I'm having a conversation with my brother about how our sister eloped and how he got an earring. Oh and he's calling Mom tonight since Dad's out of town for three days, and I'll call her tomorrow and tell her the hilarious story I've been meaning to tell her. Roomie's being a negative nancy again, so I told my brother I want to give her Haribo gummy bears and show her how good the pineapple flavored ones are. I would, but I don't have gummy bears and would rather just let her be with her boyfriend and her negativity, since that's all she wants. I don't know why she wants it, but she does, so OK. Whatever floats her boat.

Tomorrow will be lovely too - I'll probably get bored of having no work (if I'm not already), but I'd rather that than some other things. I'll talk to Mom, mail these letters, get some points back on my chem test, maybe pick up my lab report (wonder how well I did on it?) AND listen to christmas music!!!

One week:-)