A Better Moment, Captured

OK I really should go to sleep now, since I didn't sleep much last night and I'm trying to get back on a normal sleep schedule, but my iTunes shuffle is on a roll and I really can't fathom ending this amazing lineup of songs it's putting together right now. It's like some crazy marathon music moment or something, and I can't turn it off until a crappy song comes up. Maybe the next one will be Clay Aiken and I can finally go to sleep! But now the music's put me in the mood to stay awake forever - if I was at home, I'd be walking around the house, loving the darkness of all the rooms. I'd be in the kitchen with a glass of water that I'd keep refilling just because I didn't want to go to bed.

I miss those nights, the ones that are so good that I can't imagine closing my eyes and putting the night to rest. That's what I'm going home for - people say they're going home to sleep, but that's exactly what I don't want to do when I get there. I want to be awake as much as possible ( OK yes I will probably regret saying this, but hypothetically speaking this is all that I want). I can't wait to be alone in the kitchen at night, with just a few small lights on, sitting on the counter and kicking the cabinets with my heels because I just can't go to sleep. And by the way I definitely cursed my iTunes, because now the shuffle sucks, but I'm writing this so I can't go to sleep just yet.

Now it's Imogen Heap, which reminds me of late nights last year. It's good music for winding down - there's something about her music that makes me breathe fresh air. What's a better way to go to sleep than breathing fresh air? I probably get that feeling from the way she almost whispers when she sings, so that you can hear the way her lungs are inhaling and exhaling. It's the kind of thing that would annoy my mom, but it's music that's sweet enough to make me fall asleep.

I'm glad I actually got a real post out of this day - I don't like to go more than a couple days without getting to spill my mind out like this. Why does it happen late at night? Because it's when I'm finally alone, I guess. Goo Goo Dolls!

Could you whisper in my ear
the things you want to feel?
I'd give you anything to feel it coming
Do you wake up on your own
and wonder where you are?
You live with all your faults
I want to wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide?